RELATIONSHIPS & DATING
The guy that I’ve been dating off and on for five months now is still someone I’m dating off and on. I got upset with him last week over something, and I ended up calling him out on it. I was expecting him to get angry at me in response, but he surprised me and said that my expectations of him and our relationship were fair, and those expectations were something he would be willing to meet. After the conflict was resolved, I realized that it had been the first time I had ever brought up my upset feelings with someone I share a romantic relationship. Typically I’ve ghosted people or I’ve swallowed my anger because I’ve been afraid that they will take that chance to leave if I ever bring it up. The fact that I willingly confronted him about something I was upset about I think is, weirdly enough, a tell on how much I trust him. It was an interesting experience, and we ended up resolving the issue.
Like I’ve mentioned before, I love reading, but my absolutely insane schedule makes it so I don’t really have a lot of time to sit down and physically read a book. I heavily rely on Audible for audiobooks that I sneak into my day whenever I find time. I usually listen while I’m getting ready in the mornings, while I’m driving in my car, and typically I’ll put the sleep timer on for 8 minutes as night, and I’ll fall asleep to the story too. My subscription isn’t terribly expensive– $22/month– but I’m not sure it’s something I’ll be willing to continue one I graduate and finally have more time to read books.
Annnnnyway, right now I’ve been listening to the Harry Potter books as read by Jim Dale. I own the hardback set as well, but listening to them has been a fantastic experience. I’m a very fast reader to a fault, and I often miss small details in stories because I either skim over them or don’t commit them to memory. I’m about a quarter of the way into Order of the Phoenix right now. I rushed through the first four books, but now I’m trying to savor them. The fifth book is my least favorite of the bunch, mostly because Harry is so angry, but recently someone told me the reason he’s so angry is because he has severe PTSD from watching Cedric’s murder only two months before his fifth year started. I have so much more sympathy for him now, and although we just met Professor Umbridge, I am totally looking forward to reveling in my hatred of her too.
Right before I started Harry Potter, I briefly started Something Borrowed. It seemed like an easy, fluffy read, but I really loathe the main character, so I’m not sure I’ll pick it up again after I finish Deathly Hallows.
I also just started reading Onward: How Starbucks Fought for Its Life without Losing Its Soul. I have to read it for my Public Relations Case Studies class, but I’m really enjoying it. If you like reading about business, or if you really like Starbucks, I say have at it. It’s written by the CEO, and it’s not a dry read at all.
My job is as busy and demanding as ever, but they are working around my school schedule so I can still get my 40 hours/week and keep my salary instead of switching to hourly pay. I originally thought I would have to work part-time my last semester of school, but it’s looking now like I’ll work full-time throughout my entire UVU career.
I suspect this will be the most challenging four months of my life, as far as balancing multiple important priorities goes, but I’m up for the challenge. I think that’s a good marker that I haven’t overdone it– I’m still feeling optimistic about the semester, and I’m feeling like I will end 2016 tired, but rewarded.
I’m also doing my best to have a semblance of a social life this semester. I’m trying to be that outgoing, bubbly girl in my ward and in my classes. Being outgoing and bubbly is not a foreign concept to me– it’s very easy for me to slip into that persona most of the time. That said, being bubbly and outgoing with large groups of people I don’t know is absolutely exhausting and takes a lot out of me. Being naturally bubbly and outgoing is the biggest reason why I didn’t realize I was an introvert until I was 21, but constant interaction with people is draining, so I’m doing my best to manage my emotional needs of now with my desire to have a bunch of friends in my ward later on.
It’s that time of year where I star getting delusions of grandeur, and decide that I’ll take on writing a novel in November. I know I said last year that I would not do it again, but it’s such a fun challenge, and I don’t think I can help myself. This year I’m planning on writing a memoir instead of a novel, so I think it will be easier. I’ve gotten out of the habit of regularly recording my life, and between writing in journals and writing in blogs, I’ve had a fairly in tact record of my life up until this point. So look out, kids! I’m probably doing NaNo again.